The future looks dangerious.

Ahoy there matey! I would break into a Spongebob routine but not today. I got into MI (commerance) which is essentially a course which needs maths and thus, i'm digging myself a grave. Hurray! 8D

BTW, i know you're watching you JKT-spongbob lover. I know ._@

Skittles

I don't know why but i just feel so mellowed now. And not in a good way.

My dad's having liver cancer and i don't even know what stage it's at because my mom refuse to tell me, so i assumed it to be the worst. Then during a dinner with a family friend and her son (which i had an unknown animosity against), i just lost my appetite even though there was some of my favorite food on the table. They just didn't appear all that appetising to me.

That could be explain with a very simple answer; because i downed a whole pack of Skittle before the dinner, but somehow that envolved into something more ominous than i imagined it to be. My mom jokingly asked why i wasn't eating as i much as i was supposed to, "Is it because you dieting?" and i just glared at her. That usually sound funny but i have no idea why i became so pissed off.

Was it the Friend's son? Was it the Skittles or was it just me? I don't know for sure. As i'm typing this, my thoughts are just whirling like a pile of clothes in a wasing machine. I was so pissed off i said my goodbyes curtly and went off, leaving a stench of awkwardness at the table. Everyone knows i'm not on good terms with my dad, he dips his spoon in the dish when there's a spoon for him to use. I feel like saying 'Geez, not everyone wants Liver cancer or whatever it is that you're having, around the table you know' but i bit my toungue and continue to sulk/eat.

Maybe it's because they're acting so happily on the outside when they should be, i dunno, sulking like me. You don't joke and laugh when someone has cancer! Especially not the person who has it. OR maybe it's because i'm pissed with myself for trying to avoid the reality of my mom struggling to keep the family afloat when my dad goes out of comission, which he eventually will, while i just playing computer games to distract myself from the ugly and harsh facts of life, submerged in my own little sanctuary. As the bills piles up and my family ain't rich, i really should be out there having a job but i just don't want to face it.

I really want to face the reality but i'm afraid. So afraid that i can't stand the truth yet i'm deploring myself for this cowardice. Now i know why mental patients chose to be insane. it's so much more better in your own little world away from anything that's bad.

Your last sanctuary.

Random update... oh hell, it's the only update!

I've been lazy and not much can be said about that you know. *laughs dryly*

Anywho, i've decided to update this on a wet rainy night since i'm waiting for a video to load, so i thought what the hell, i'll just give a give update. So here i am!

Lately the english music scene is kinda dead to me, i mean none of the song REALLY makes me wanna listen to them over and over again. It's just the casual 'Ok song, next one please' attitude for me now. I NEED something solid for me to listen to now, it makes me so empty on the inside. Seriously, someone revive the music scene already!

Oh, and there's a really fantastic show called 'Heroes' which is like a mashed-up version of Lost and X-Men. Pretty cool and thanks to sharf for the intro to this show ;D

Well, that's all and i'm still alive. I guess...

First post of 2007

Happy new year ;D 

Last post before the end of 2006

Yes, it's the end of another year. I know i don't blog much nowadays but i have a fairly good reason, and it's because i seem to have lost my flare for writing. How weird right?

Anywho, 2006 wasn't that bad of a year for me. I mean, sure there were plenty fo hiccups along the way but it was alright. Hell, even my classmates are fun when they aren't busy being idiots. So, let's recap the top 5 most memorable events in '06.

1) Switching to a new class

I was devastated when i first saw the list that said i'm going to be in a new class. I'll miss my friends in N2 and i'll have to try to make new ones in N3. I felt like i had just lost my save file and i have to restart from scratch, so i was kinda bummed about it. I was sorta torn between being the 'Cold, Arrogant Bastard' and the 'Silly Doormat' since these new 'friends' will probably last 1 year at max.

No prizes for guessing which one i became.

2) Guide on How to deal with Strangers

I remember this one very well as it was written close to the Chinese New Year, when the inevitable happens to all of us. You're pretty sure they are blood-related to you but you're not sure who they are, thus the need for this dandy guide. Pity the colors are so... weird and messy.

3) Rants about Chinese

God, i swear i've never complained so much about a particular subject before. Besides have crappy teammates, the 'Bitch From Hell' teacher and her Nazi-fied ways are the main contributing drive to these entries. I'm pretty sure i have 3 entries per month or something on this subject. Oh! How could i forgot about the major guilt trip a certain teamate of mine sent me spinning into, it's pratically the climax of this whole Chinese Bitch saga.

4) School's 20th Anniversary dinner

Yeap, the ol' school is going to be torn down next year so we had this anniversary/farewell dinner for it. 6 people eating the food meant for 10 people and we sorta managed to finish it. With yours truly polishing off a whole plate of prawns, so i was dubbed thee 'Prawn Killer' who commited the atrocious 'Prawn Genocide' with his bare fingers.

5) My working life

Oh yes, it was fun working for the first time and earning money for my self. My first paycheck was $72.11! Yes! Magical numbers, but too bad 7211 didn't came out for toto, i was so bummed about that. Also i got my first working scar which kinda promted me to go into a spending spree and bought myself lots of things with my subsequent paychecks. Can't say i regretted spending it though.

There you have it, my top 5 most memorable happening in 2006!

  Hope you have a blessed and wonderful year ahead.
Happy New Year!

Funny stuff

So like i had this convo with Shimmi and below is the ss of it. I won't say much, it speaks for itself. xD